um hello.
this is a blog.
im starting it today because i got my wisdom teeth pulled out and i cant go to dance class but i dont feel crappy anymore and now i am bored.
im wierded out by how self conscious i feel about starting this. its just a blog. im just a person. whatever.
hahaaha.
lets talk about Jesus. i love him. the past couple weeks ive been enamoured with him because hes amazing and God and if we are going to be in awe of anything it ought to be Him. because what Hes done is mind boggling. but i just have not been feeling it the past couple days. why? i know im a sinner and my flesh gets in the way alot... but i kind of thought that i could be captivated by this forever. and i know i can be. im just a human and he is God. hes eternally more than me and its impossible for me to have my fill of him. what is wrong with me??? stupid. stupid stupid.
i need the holy spirit to change my heart. cause i dont want to get into a religious regimen of trying to make myself feel it. this is for real. what Gods done is huge. no duh. hmm. i dont feel like worrying about it. is that bad or ok?
i believe that he will complete the good work he started in me. part of me just feels peaceful. do i let it go? and wait on him?? i think my heart is saying yes.
do i force myself to realize how beautiful this all is?
but i do know how beautiful it is. i just dont feel super lovey and passionate right now. i just feel restful and content. why am i worrying? God is faithful. God is amazing. i cant do anything or realize anything on my own anyways. wait on the Lord oh my soul!!! i will wait for the Lord as a watchman waits for the morning.
im afraid of getting complacent and in a rut. but why? im always afraid of that. but Christ is in me. am i really so prideful that i think i can keep myself on track? without his grace id be gone in a second. so work in me Jesus! have your way with me! jeez i love him.
today i finally found the cord to hook up my camera to my computer. lemme see if i can figure this out...
there is a grasshopper
